when you looked in the mirror that last day,
what did you see?
did you see only the little broken girl
that you used to be?
did you think she’d remain wounded forever
unable to get out of her head?
did you ever hope that one day she’d live the rest of her life
instead of ending up dead?
did you ever consider, just once, that things
could have turned out alright,
maybe you’d had found someone to love like you once did
or maybe it was yourself all this time?
i wish you’d have waited to find out all the answers
instead of me asking them tonight
i wish you’d have given this life one more chance…
i wish you’d have put up a fight.
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i bet on black
and almost lost it all
never seeing how attached i was to the outcome
until i began to fall
into the abyss of your despair,
your plans, and your deceit
too late for me to climb out and save myself
instead, you made me complicit
to the plans you made
for your expiration date
so when the day finally came
all we could do was wait
but I couldn’t wait anymore
I had to bet on red
before the sun rose and set
before you’d do the things you said
i hope you’re happy now
you even got to say the last word
thank you for showing me, in the end,
who and what you really were.
I lost myself
long before I realized
I had to let you go
all because I believed
being there for you
was more important
than being there
We never truly know what goes on behind closed doors
For behind each smile could hide a frown
Behind each happy face that we see and ignore
There’s someone who needs a little lift because he’s down
We never truly know what prompts each word others speak
Was it really a happy thought or was it sad?
There’s so much in this world that we seek
Yet not everything we get in return makes us glad
We never truly know what hides behind the laughter
Is it only concealing the darkness, the utter despair?
Still there even when the sun rises after
Never seeing the ones who love you, still standing there.