simplicity’ sake

i woke up to a beautiful sight today,
your face veiled in the dawning light
before losing myself in your warm embrace
remembering the words you said last night

we’ve come a long way, you and me
with each passing day building up to the next
secrets told and dreams shared
yet everything about us is so complex

but for simplicity’s sake, tell me again how i touch you
and i’ll whisper the ways you continue to change my world
how you remind me i’m worthy in so many ways
for with every word spoken or unspoken, my heart learns

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tell me again why i love you
for your voice has turned
into venom in my veins,
pulling me away from things that matter,
each word you utter now a chain
binding me to uncertainty,
my own voice drowned.
so tell me again why i love you.
tell me before i shut down.

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you’re my perfect distraction,
my lip-biting, breathtaking, midday attraction
taking me away from every responsibility,
at least, for just a time until you say my name
and ask me, ever so softly in that baritone voice of yours,
did you like that, baby?
do you want more?

more than a wish

days like this are made for smiling,
giggling at the sound of your voice,
the words you say making me happy, giddy,
your messages of hope rising above the noise
of a world that wants only to distract me
from all the things that don’t matter in the end
for the most precious thing right now
is the sight of your soulful eyes the moment
we stop to pretend that what we have is temporary,
fleeting, and gone too soon
for you are more than a wish I whispered
upon a falling star. you are my sun
and i, your moon.

would you rather

if you could choose moments to take with you wherever you go,
which ones would you pick?

would you choose that first time he spoke your name
or would you rather go for that first kiss?

would you discard the moments when he broke your heart
keeping the ones where he chased away the pain with a heartfelt word,

those times when you thought you couldn’t go on
until he held you in his arms and for the first time in a long time, you felt heard?

would you find it hard to pick and choose
which moments to keep and which ones to toss away

or would you rather take all the moments just as they are
no matter how many times you both have gone astray?

when you say goodbye

when you say goodbye again,
will i be ready this time around?
will i know the signs of the coming fall
or will our rendezvous be enough to keep me sound

until the next time you return, your loneliness
overcoming your need to be alone
yearning the feel of someone to hold you
seeking in each one of us the solace of home?

completely

it’s the little things you do that make me happy
like remembering to wish me a happy valentine’s day
as i lie here snuggled under the covers
feeling like it’s suddenly my birthday

it’s the sweet things you say that make me smile
gentle words you know touch me deeply
simply because that’s just the way you are
and it’s why i love you completely

happy valentine’s day

the game

you’re not good for me,
everyone knows that
but my heart hasn’t gotten the memo yet
still trying to remain detached

walking right along the middle
between good choices and bad
one side looking quite boring
while on the other, lots of fun to be had

where there are no rules
not the ones everyone knows of
except for one that gets broken every time
it’s when someone falls in love

so what can you do then,
when you’ve clearly broken the rules?
do you say time out and leave the game
or do you keep going and play the fool?

games we played

i searched for you in my heart today
but i couldn’t find you anywhere
wasn’t that what you promised me
that i’d always find you there?

was it all a lie then
those promises that you made
spoken to ease my fears and loneliness
all this time, was it all a game?

did you lose control? is that what happened
when things got too much?
was that when you decided to leave –
when the tide became too rough?

did you have enough of the games we played
the ones that left us both drowning
in the lies that we told each other,
all the while constantly seeking

for more than we could ever give
more than what we had deep inside
is that why i can’t find you in my heart anymore?
the day you left, was that when our love finally died?


post-it note

i found a post-it note from you today
it fell from the book you last read
tell her she's beautiful, you wrote 
words you whispered as you kissed my forehead
the day you told me i'd find love again
that all i had to do was close my eyes
and you'd be right there with me
and that we'd both be just fine
that i'd always feel your love wherever i went
as i'd run headfirst into love
i just had to trust myself again
        and then you were gone