happy birthday

the years have tempered my anger and resentment
the realization that i’m far from perfect settling like fine wine
and right now it’s your birthday
and all i wish is to have a drink with you one last time

i’ll listen to you tell me your stories, and when the mood hits
(and it always does), sing your favorite songs
they all say i inherited your smile and your laughter
how i wish we could right all the wrongs

but no one can tell us who to love
sometimes, our minds are simply not as strong
to stop what the heart wants and whoever it desires,
for even the biggest hearts end up getting it all wrong

but that’s okay. i’m finally old enough to know
that you did your best and that i did, too
going through this life walking such different paths
without you knowing who i really am, or me knowing you.




book case

for my birthday, i want a bookcase
where i can live a different life
page after page
each treasured book a sweet escape
never one to lose my place

for my birthday i want a home
where i can live and not be afraid
like i always am
each day the same unflinching reality
another unfulfilled life on the lam

for my birthday i want to be happy
for life will be short
from here on
i’ve fallen far from where i started
but from this moment on, I’ll be reborn

Hand Me Down (Tanka)

Clothes and toys, recipes and jokes, advice and prejudice: we all have to handle all sorts of hand-me-downs every day. Tell us about some of the meaningful hand-me-downs in your life.

So many regrets,
of a life long lived in fear
Too many desires
ignored till they disappeared
Life half lived, year after year

So you pass them on
Like they’re trinkets in a box
Regrets and old fears
Weighing us down like they’re rocks
As we push against the locks.

Daily Prompt