it was always the same
it never changed
that moment she’d feel herself floating
whenever the bad things happened again

her mind told her it was temporary
such things always were
but 40 years after it happened
she realized that her mind simply lied to her

for what else could it tell her,
unable to help any other way?
for when those bad things happened again and again,
there was nothing she – or her mind – could do to get away

NaPoWriMo Day 7: Caged

Some days she feels off-center
as if she’s been wrung out
from the inside
Doubts and fears overrule her,
and she wonders if she’s going
out of her mind

for the past often takes a life
of its own, overruling
all common sense
till self-doubt is all
that’s left inside of her,
no more need for pretense

so she screams her frustrations
to the wind, not caring
if it hears her rage
but it’s loud enough to jolt
the fighter inside her, till she feels it
step out of its cage.

Unmarred – A Nonet

Dissociation is such a bitch
Bites me in the ass every time
Though I never can see it
Rushing fast towards me
To tear at my heart
Pick me apart
Though unmarred


*A nonet is a nine line poem. The first line containing nine syllables, the next line has eight syllables, the next line has seven syllables. That continues until the last line (the ninth line) which has one syllable. Nonets can be written about any subject. Rhyming is optional.