i turned a year older yesterday and for the first time I didn’t feel sad. I felt happy and content, as if something in my life finally made sense, from the relationships I made to the ones I lost even those that were never meant to stay. is that why for the first time in a very long time i only have good things to say
it was never about the sex. it was always about connection. it was never about the way you moved (well, maybe a little) it was more than a simple distraction and as long as you’re willing to keep on going then i’m game, too for as long as this connections holds, baby it’ll always be with you
is there a secret to falling in love or is being in lust with you so much easier on the heart that i should refrain from letting my mind tell me to stop and just go for the ride and fall and drown, and like a magic trick, appear unbruised, like new?
you are my muse and that is the truth, at least for now, pulling me from the depths of despair i find myself in somehow preferring the comfort of the darkness when there is so much light out there until your smile, your eyes, your voice prove the perfect snare
so keep me under your spell for as long as you truly can dance with me to the tune of my wildness. be my hero, be my man and i’ll write you until my tears run out and i’ll need to cut open a vein and let my fears and dreams and love spill out, and all that my heart cannot contain.
know my name though i go by many know it anyway for it’s the only way i know you see me and see that beyond the masks i wear to protect my heart, only you know what lies inside wishing it’ll remain unhurt until the game we play finally runs its course and i’ll be left with nothing but bitter remorse
i rushed in
too fast and too soon
to check the room.
was i wanted?
could i stay?
do you think me weird
for the things i say?
awkward, that’s me
although that’s the way
i’ve always been
too quick to jump in
too fast to trust
when will i ever learn
that some things,
i woke up to a beautiful sight today, your face veiled in the dawning light before losing myself in your warm embrace remembering the words you said last night
we’ve come a long way, you and me with each passing day building up to the next secrets told and dreams shared yet everything about us is so complex
but for simplicity’s sake, tell me again how i touch you and i’ll whisper the ways you continue to change my world how you remind me i’m worthy in so many ways for with every word spoken or unspoken, my heart learns
you let me find your quiet place, and asked me to sit with you and in the ensuing silence we said words we’d never shared with anyone before – words of comfort, love and so much more words meant only for our lonely souls to hear as you lay your hand over my heart and said, no matter where i go, wherever i may be, just close your eyes and find me right here.