happy birthday

the years have tempered my anger and resentment
the realization that i’m far from perfect settling like fine wine
and right now it’s your birthday
and all i wish is to have a drink with you one last time

i’ll listen to you tell me your stories, and when the mood hits
(and it always does), sing your favorite songs
they all say i inherited your smile and your laughter
how i wish we could right all the wrongs

but no one can tell us who to love
sometimes, our minds are simply not as strong
to stop what the heart wants and whoever it desires,
for even the biggest hearts end up getting it all wrong

but that’s okay. i’m finally old enough to know
that you did your best and that i did, too
going through this life walking such different paths
without you knowing who i really am, or me knowing you.




For Loida

life is too short
for worries you can’t take to your grave
no matter what our weaknesses,
be kind, be true, be brave
be real, be happy,
be you
be authentic no matter
what you decide to do

you were here one day
and then on Sunday, you were gone
so much work yet to be done
life is simply too short
and so unfair –
i still can’t believe you’re gone.

Note: I’m shocked as I lie in my bed tonight half the world away, having just learned my cousin died of a heart attack at 48. It’s so weird how Facebook has become the only avenue for people to connect and record passages. Still, she was too young… Rest In Peace, Loida ❤️

We Never Truly Know

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We never truly know what goes on behind closed doors
For behind each smile could hide a frown
Behind each happy face that we see and ignore
There’s someone who needs a little lift because he’s down

We never truly know what prompts each word others speak
Was it really a happy thought or was it sad?
There’s so much in this world that we seek
Yet not everything we get in return makes us glad

We never truly know what hides behind the laughter
Is it only concealing the darkness, the utter despair?
Still there even when the sun rises after
Never seeing the ones who love you, still standing there.