In His Study: A Short Story (Audio)

I wrote In His Study six years ago in response to a writing prompt about a person’s character based on items in his desk drawer. While it didn’t really follow the prompt to the letter, I loved writing it and watching each character unfold on the page.

In His Study features one of my all-time favorite couples Luna and Devlin whose story I will go back to this year.

Until then, here’s a peek into their new life in London. I hope you like it!

discarded notes: 14

is there a secret to falling in love
or is being in lust with you
so much easier on the heart
that i should refrain
from letting my mind tell me
to stop and just go for the ride
and fall and drown,
and like a magic trick,
appear unbruised,
like new?

hush

hush, they’re watching, reading
between the lines of the words i write,
wondering if they’re for you and of that,
they’d be right.

shh, don’t speak, at least
not yet. not until i collect my thoughts
and find the words to say to you…
words meant to connect

two souls so far apart yet so near
only we didn’t know it. two hearts beating
their lonely rhythms, not knowing what comes next
for there is no rhyme or reason

why we love the ones we love and why
we fall for the ones we fall for. but to hear your voice
whispering in my ear, let me just say with you,
i’ll give you everything you want and more.

secret place

secrets…
we all have them
and you’re mine
you’re the one
i’ll be thinking of
when no one is looking
time after time

it took forever
for us to figure things out
but with you here with me
your touch,
your voice
erases every
doubt

so i’ll keep you
hidden away
in my deepest secret place
as you keep me safe
in your strong
and warm
embrace



impatient

it’s the waiting that derails me every time
it takes over everything else i do
making me wonder if i said something i shouldn’t have
did i speak out of turn instead of waiting for you?

and so i sit here patiently
knowing there’s a lesson waiting for me somewhere
the same one that keeps coming back until i learn it
and the whole time you were always there.

favor

can you do me a favor right now?
it won’t take long, I promise

stand in front of a mirror and tell me
what you see and be honest

maybe you’re seeing the wrinkles on your brow
or those laugh lines you hate so much

maybe you’re noticing gray roots along your hairline
or that your skin’s no longer smooth to the touch

maybe you’re seeing extra curves that shouldn’t be there
or your skin’s starting to sag it’s pitiful

maybe you’re thinking you’ve changed so much
and that you used to be so young and beautiful

but can you pause for a while with your thoughts
and look at your reflection with a softer gaze

allow a touch of kindness to sink in
let wisdom settle through the haze

for you are beautiful inside and out
with a lifetime of experience to draw from

you are amazing, you are worthy
you are as strong in spirit as they come

there’s so much more i want to say
maybe when you’re ready you can choose the words

like daring, feisty, and courageous
a woman living on her own terms

sure, you’ve stumbled and fallen
and then there’s the betrayal and heartache

but you are much stronger than he will ever know
and you’ll learn from every mistake

so when you look at that woman in the mirror again
i hope you take a step closer and say hello

for she is tough and downright amazing
and she’s the most beautiful woman I know.

rebuilt

i learned a lot this year
most of all, about myself
like the fact that i still make so many mistakes
and that i need to take better care of my mental health

that i still need to hear a good word or two
just a little bit now and then
it’s not selfish at all, i’ve come to realize
for one can’t keep taking the hits again and again

without some reprieve,
just a a little place of safety
one i found when i stumbled into you
and you said in not so general terms that i was worthy

little bits here and there
words of comfort and positivity
they helped put this broken heart together again
thank you for all the words that rebuilt me

showing me there’s a warrior deep inside
even if all i am some days is full-on empathy
it took some time but it was one thing i needed to learn this year
that i’m stronger than most assume me to be

so thank you for staying, my friend,
even when all you wanted was to go
but you’ve made my world better by staying just a tad longer
thank you for giving me time to let go



love affair

i’ve finally decided to have a love affair
a heck of a surprising discovery
for while i was setting up a zoom call
i found someone beautiful looking back at me

maybe it was the lighting that played on her face
even if she was clearly in some drab kitchen
with fridge magnets spelling D I N N E R behind her
it took less than a minute… but i was smitten

there was warmth to her smile
a glint of mischief in her eyes
and when she said, why hello there stranger
i could tell she was funny, caring, and wise

i didn’t notice the wrinkles on her face
or the gray roots that she somehow missed
all i saw was a woman who glowed from the inside
someone who was grateful to exist

how i wanted to be just like her
a woman so confident in her own skin
that’s when she said, oh dear heart but i am you
and you already have everything you need within

you’re okay

some days, it can be tough
when we realize we’ll never be enough
for the world that’s waiting out there
demanding that we be perfect and live a life with flair
gain more followers! build up your likes!
do something original
, they say, and watch your numbers spike!

but as uncertainty creeps in and you wonder what you’re doing wrong
it’s easy to forget that once you turn everything off, you’re still as strong
as you were in the morning before you took it all in—anxiety and self-doubt—
time to kick those naysayers out
for you’re okay just the way you are with your easy smile and gentle heart
so come sit with me a while, it’s time for a fresh start 🙂