i woke up today not missing you
as much as i did yesterday
you could say it’s an improvement
i no longer feel as frayed
as i did when you left
those first four weeks were simply hell
not knowing what to do with my emotions
even with your well thought-out farewells

but you were right to say what you did
that time will heal the pain i’d feel
time always does, it seems
which only makes everything surreal
the pain that seemed so true
emotions that overtook all reason
as if reminding me i still existed
my heart guilty of treason

one day i’ll forget all about you
like i’ve forgotten everyone who came before
their names hidden inside every poem
as my heart sang and my soul soared
powerful at every start
overruling everything i believed to be right
until every promise broke my heart
its pieces cast out like stars in the night

She Writes

She writes for two reasons:
to express herself, and explore
the many things that shaped her,
of the darkness that came before

She views them through others’ eyes
for it’s where she feel the safest
learning the lessons never learned then
mired in self-loathing, too scared to protest

So she writes to find her strength again
hoping that maybe, she just might find it
for somewhere deep within her
a child still believes she’s counterfeit

and with each word, the healing begins
each line a victory won
till her words bound in books are judged all over again
and before long, she’s come undone

and then one day, she remembers why
she breaks her soul down into words every day
words have power, her soul reminds her
it’s how she expresses the things she can never say

for she knows she’s worth so much more
than that hour’s rankings or the day’s sales
she writes for the joy her soul remembers
each moment of healing found in her tales.


via Survival — The Daily Post

Om Namo

You can choose any person from history to teach you any topic you want. Who’s your teacher, and what do they teach you?

shivago2More than 2,500 years ago, an Indian doctor named Shivago Komarpaj, was said to have been the physician to the Buddha and his sangha, or community. He believed everything had healing properties, whether weeds, the soil or rocks that don’t seem to have any medicinal properties at all. He is also considered as the Father of traditional Thai medicine.

So if there is any person in history I would like to have as my teacher, to teach me any topic I want, it’s him. I’d like him to teach me how to bring about the union of mind, body and spirit whether through bodywork or in combination with herbal medicine, nutrition, meditation, exercise and always, incorporating the world around us.

Many Thai massage practitioners honor Father Shivago, or the Father Doctor, as he is called, with a prayer or mantra, like this one recited by one of my teachers, Jack Chaiya.

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