dark places, quiet spaces you know them all for you were there when i fell when i ignored the call my heart’s warning to stand back and keep my doors closed you were simply too real for me your words, your voice left me exposed to the many lies i kept hidden the stories i kept believing in yet you knew one day i’d unfold every secret i held onto finally revealed no stone unturned, nothing concealed dark places, my quiet spaces thank you for staying till i healed
do you remember the first time you were called annoying? how your breath stopped short in your chest the way the light drained from your eyes, though you knew your cheeks were ablaze the way your throat tightened as you tried to form an argument that got lost on your tongue? your eyes never left the floor that day. you were 13.
you’re 20 now, and i still see the light fade from your eyes when you talk about your interests for “too long,” apologies littering every other sentence, words trailing off a cliff you haven’t jumped from in 7 years. i could listen to you forever, though i know speaking for more than 3 uninterrupted minutes makes you anxious. all i want you to know is that you deserve to be heard for 3 minutes for 10 minutes for 2 hours forever.
there will be people who cannot handle your grace, your beauty, your wisdom, y our heart; mostly because they can’t handle their own. but you will never be and have never been “too much.”
if i could give you all the love in the world, i would write it all down in a book in all the languages that i could think of no matter how long it took
so i caught all the words I needed one day telling them they were meant for someone precious to me a good friend with the biggest heart who reminded me i was loved and that i was worthy
of everything good the world had to offer just like he deserved only the very best, too, i wanted him to know all this and more so i begged Love to be still before my plan would fall through
but all the words had other plans as they struggled to lift off the page ruffling the pages of the book in front of me for they did not wish to be caught nor caged
we do best when we’re set free, they said and that’s exactly what you’re going to do so you can give him all the love you could ever want matching every bit of love he gave to you
for some things in life are simpler than they seem like a heartfelt wish sent with the purest intentions so if you wish to let him know how you truly feel just say the words, no need to make an impression
and after some thought, that’s exactly what i did as i flipped through all the pages and let the words go for you already know how much you mean to me, i just wanted the rest of the world to know.
some days, it can be tough when we realize we’ll never be enough for the world that’s waiting out there demanding that we be perfect and live a life with flair gain more followers! build up your likes! do something original, they say, and watch your numbers spike!
but as uncertainty creeps in and you wonder what you’re doing wrong it’s easy to forget that once you turn everything off, you’re still as strong as you were in the morning before you took it all in—anxiety and self-doubt— time to kick those naysayers out for you’re okay just the way you are with your easy smile and gentle heart so come sit with me a while, it’s time for a fresh start 🙂
thank you that’s all i can say thank you for showing me the good in every day the happy smiles, the laughter, each naughty thought, every honest answer everything about you i’m so grateful for and if others can’t see it let them go just don’t forget the strength inside your heart for your whole is so much better than just the parts that others want you to be unable to see what i’ve always seen a soul so fearless and loving it’s what you’ve always been.
you changed the language of my heart and the alphabet of my soul, little things that aren’t so little but i just thought you should know before you leave to find your own way i can never repay you enough but because of you i’m happy for the little things again, even the most trivial of stuff like the memory of your love and your hand over this broken heart, the sound of your voice that echoes still reminding me i’m beautiful, worthy and smart, constantly rewriting what was once written there, turning apathy and self-loathing into passion and self-care. and all this because once upon a time, you dared.
i woke up today not missing you as much as i did yesterday you could say it’s an improvement i no longer feel as frayed as i did when you left those first four weeks were simply hell not knowing what to do with my emotions even with your well thought-out farewells
but you were right to say what you did that time will heal the pain i’d feel time always does, it seems which only makes everything surreal the pain that seemed so true emotions that overtook all reason as if reminding me i still existed my heart guilty of treason
one day i’ll forget all about you like i’ve forgotten everyone who came before their names hidden inside every poem as my heart sang and my soul soared powerful at every start overruling everything i believed to be right until every promise broke my heart its pieces cast out like stars in the night