you let me find your quiet place, and asked me to sit with you and in the ensuing silence we said words we’d never shared with anyone before – words of comfort, love and so much more words meant only for our lonely souls to hear as you lay your hand over my heart and said, no matter where i go, wherever i may be, just close your eyes and find me right here.
no one knows how deep our scars run and sometimes not even we do until someone comes and traces the marks and to our horror, the wounds open up again too soon
far sooner than we were prepared to staunch the flow of not just blood, but memories and shame the very ones that kept us scarred and broken, long after we’ve forgotten their names
but for your words and the sound of your voice, this time something was different for together with the stigma and the blame that may have accompanied them, there, too, was redemption
an acceptance that none of it was my fault or my own doing, nothing i deserved or asked for. and i can finally move on because you saw something i long forgot, that i am worthy and i am worth fighting for.
you checked in on me when you didn’t have to you were honestly the last person i thought would call but you did and for that i am grateful for your words mean more to me than all the likes on my social media wall.
for you took the time to make sure i was okay even if it was already late in your day after you had to put out fires at work and at home you took the time to remind me i’m not alone
that even in this crazy world we find ourselves in right now where there’s too much hatred and color wars i can still count on you to be there for me no matter where you are, no matter how far.
there’s nothing sexier than the honesty you bring to the table as to what you can give me and what you cannot, or where the boundaries between us lie so nothing we do is an afterthought. for what we have is the raw deal. although complicated, what we have is real.
if we’re being honest, what we have won’t go very far we’re just two people on separate journeys seeking to fill the loneliness in our hearts so we play, we laugh, we giggle we tell each other one secret after another, hoping little by little that the emptiness we feel diminishes with each passing day until the time comes when we run out of things to say but goodbye and good luck. thank you for picking up my broken pieces along the way.
do you remember the first time you were called annoying? how your breath stopped short in your chest the way the light drained from your eyes, though you knew your cheeks were ablaze the way your throat tightened as you tried to form an argument that got lost on your tongue? your eyes never left the floor that day. you were 13.
you’re 20 now, and i still see the light fade from your eyes when you talk about your interests for “too long,” apologies littering every other sentence, words trailing off a cliff you haven’t jumped from in 7 years. i could listen to you forever, though i know speaking for more than 3 uninterrupted minutes makes you anxious. all i want you to know is that you deserve to be heard for 3 minutes for 10 minutes for 2 hours forever.
there will be people who cannot handle your grace, your beauty, your wisdom, y our heart; mostly because they can’t handle their own. but you will never be and have never been “too much.”
if i could give you all the love in the world, i would write it all down in a book in all the languages that i could think of no matter how long it took
so i caught all the words I needed one day telling them they were meant for someone precious to me a good friend with the biggest heart who reminded me i was loved and that i was worthy
of everything good the world had to offer just like he deserved only the very best, too, i wanted him to know all this and more so i begged Love to be still before my plan would fall through
but all the words had other plans as they struggled to lift off the page ruffling the pages of the book in front of me for they did not wish to be caught nor caged
we do best when we’re set free, they said and that’s exactly what you’re going to do so you can give him all the love you could ever want matching every bit of love he gave to you
for some things in life are simpler than they seem like a heartfelt wish sent with the purest intentions so if you wish to let him know how you truly feel just say the words, no need to make an impression
and after some thought, that’s exactly what i did as i flipped through all the pages and let the words go for you already know how much you mean to me, i just wanted the rest of the world to know.