Pam

five years ago today
you passed away
but I still can’t believe
you’re gone
i never got to say good-bye
nor understand why
though memories of you
live on

but i finally did get to pen
those stories in the end
the ones I kept telling you
all about
the ones you never forgot,
of loves and lives overwrought
for never once did
you ever doubt

that i’d finally let the ghosts loose
step away from that noose
that kept me silent
for so long
you knew it all in the end
my dearest, loveliest friend
just where I truly
belonged.

NaNoWriMo Blues

It’s the 23rd day of NaNoWriMo, and though my word counter says I’ve written 67K words, I’m really only at 45,635 words (because I am editing as I go – don’t tell anyone).  In the midst of it all, the house is untidy, my gray roots are showing, and I’ve slackened off on my running – and walking.  Yes, my butt has gotten quite big in a span of 23 days.

But in those 23 days, I published my novel Finding Sam.  Indie-publish should be the word to use though, since I didn’t get published by some big-name publisher and they’re not yet beating a path to my door.  Hell, not even a small publisher, not that I even know what publishers are not actually vanity publishers right off the bat.

But I’m quite pleased with myself that I got my book on Kindle and Smashwords’ Premium library, which means I get to see it featured in the search results on the Apple bookstore and other stores that Smashwords sends their novels to be featured.  I thought it would be nerve-wracking and confusing. it’s not like I kept a checklist on paper – for this one was all in my head, and on my browser bookmarks folder.  Now all I have to do is tackle the marketing, but that will be after NaNoWriMo.

So all in all, in those 23 days, I don’t think I’ve done too bad.  I’ve managed to stay out of trouble – online, at least, and have kept on writing, and pants-ing pseudo plotting my way to the end of my second novel, Loving Ashe.  All I need to do now is input the number on the NaNoWriMo website and call myself a winner.

But not till this second book is done and dusted.   I’ve got 7 days left.

It’s a Good Day To Be A Writer

Today, my first son turns 23.  It’s also the day I chose to publish my first novel, Finding Sam on Amazon.

Now , while I just “published” an in-progress novel for NaNoWriMo a few days ago, there’s nothing like actually publishing a completed novel because I know it’s as “done” as it can be.  Even my husband told me a few weeks ago that if I kept worrying about perfection like I do over my work, nothing I write will ever see the light of day.

So last night, bleary-eyed and cross-eyed, I hit the button marked Publish and unleashed my dearest Sam into the world.  And while there may not be any balloons, cake and confetti to mark such a momentous occasion, I did receive my iPhone 6 Plus today and just activated it.

And I also heard from the Margaret Atwood people about the Wattpad contest I entered a month ago where I wrote a bit of fan fiction for her new novel, The Stone Mattress (and no, I didn’t win BUT I am getting a copy of her book as a runner-up!).  Still…

It’s a good day to be a writer.

– Reposted from Back_Space | by Liz.

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230K Reads And Counting

I’m pretty thrilled, mind you, that my story Finding Sam has gotten 230 reads so far on Wattpad.  For the sake of math, I guess with 48 chapters, that means each chapter has gotten 4,900 reads or so (I am terrible with math by the way, so if there’s another algorithm that makes sense out there, enlighten my NaNoWriMo-addled and editing mind).

However, those are free reads unfortunately, so there’s no money in the kitty just yet.

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My fake book cover with Fassy’s eyes. I’m still looking for the perfect book cover by the way. Anyone have suggestions?

In other news, I’ve written 29K words for my NaNoWriMo novel, Loving Ashe.  And I’m currently having a #firstworldproblem – deciding whether they sleep together in chapter 10 or not.

Yes, this is what goes on in my mind when no one’s looking…