i rushed in
too fast and too soon
to check the room.
was i wanted?
could i stay?
do you think me weird
for the things i say?
awkward, that’s me
although that’s the way
i’ve always been
too quick to jump in
too fast to trust
when will i ever learn
that some things,
thank you that’s all i can say thank you for showing me the good in every day the happy smiles, the laughter, each naughty thought, every honest answer everything about you i’m so grateful for and if others can’t see it let them go just don’t forget the strength inside your heart for your whole is so much better than just the parts that others want you to be unable to see what i’ve always seen a soul so fearless and loving it’s what you’ve always been.
they say people come into your life
for a reason. is that why you came in
like a hurricane i never expected
but in the end, i desperately needed?
for i'd been asleep at the wheel, too lost
in my sadness to know i had to wake up
if i wanted something worthwhile to sow,
but only if i plucked the courage
to pursue my passion without
any hesitation and finish
what needed to be done after i forgot
what it felt like to have fun and
fall in love with you even if
you only meant to stay
until i found my way.
you changed the language of my heart and the alphabet of my soul, little things that aren’t so little but i just thought you should know before you leave to find your own way i can never repay you enough but because of you i’m happy for the little things again, even the most trivial of stuff like the memory of your love and your hand over this broken heart, the sound of your voice that echoes still reminding me i’m beautiful, worthy and smart, constantly rewriting what was once written there, turning apathy and self-loathing into passion and self-care. and all this because once upon a time, you dared.
i found a post-it note from you today
it fell from the book you last read
tell her she's beautiful, you wrote
words you whispered as you kissed my forehead
the day you told me i'd find love again
that all i had to do was close my eyes
and you'd be right there with me
and that we'd both be just fine
that i'd always feel your love wherever i went
as i'd run headfirst into love
i just had to trust myself again
and then you were gone
there are days when you just have to know
where you stand in this game called life
where family values still amount to something
if you only take the time to set down that knife
you're too busy using to cut off what matters
your own eyes
are in tatters
and you've forgotten respect and integrity
too blinded in your own lies to see
that you're nothing but a hollow spineless coward
and you'll never be the man you were meant to be
until you stop,
take a breath,
and look beyond the hatred you've sown
but i doubt you'd do that, your ear pressed too deep
against the field of lies you've grown all this time
against your own